SAINT NOTHING

My life has been so busy lately, haven't had much time at all to blog. Tomorrow is my last day before i finish for 3 weeks, and i will be able to update you all with the crazy happenings of my life. 

It's going to be so strange to back at home, it's a completely different life.

BELLE

Just a few snap shots of the past few weeks.

It's weird how attached i am to my long hair now, i can't imagine myself with short hair any more and in a couple of weeks me and my friend are going to get our hair dip dyed together. I was originally going to go lilac but I've decided a light brown would suit me more and she's going even blonder eeeeeek!
I have been in Sheffield this whole weekend to celebrate one of my home friends birthday a few weeks back, it was so lovely to see all the girls together again. I got back at about 7ish last night and went straight to bed, now i have 3 days off and i need to work work work. oh and i've started playing guitar again, i actually think i'm better now after not having played for a good year then i have ever been, everything just flows naturally and it feels pretty damn good.

REAL LOVE. will find you to your back to it

These photo's are from my christmas holiday. The first of when my parents and  brother completed a 1000 piece jigsaw, the second for when i made pancakes one morning because they were all that i was craving to eat. The 3rd and 4th are of my favourite 2 boys in this world.

It's really nice to be home for a couple days, the last past weeks at university have been so hectic and busy so it's nice to escape that a little but i honestly miss it more than anything. I love how eventful, surprising and exciting everyday is at university, i've made a family there and being away from them if only for a few days is impossible. I miss them all dearly. BUT it was wonderful to see my home girls the weekend just past, i definitely needed to see them. This week, although i'm completely swamped with assignments i've made plans to see Angelalala and Lauren which i'm really looking forward too. Anywho, i woke up early for a reason so i best get started with working and actually get something decent done today. Of course, coffee first to start my day.

Oh yeah, i forgot it was Valentines day... I don't really know what this day means to you, for some it's the worst day in the world and others the most important. I think the whole concept of it is complete and utter crap. Share the love, always. It's simple.

LOVE MORE

 silver rings are my new love

 woo my hair is still growing

 
triangles are cool. fact.

more silver rings

the title of this post is from a song my friend George sent me, of a girl with pretty voice, her name goes by  Sharon Van Etten. For many years she struggled with sharing her music, she finally has the chance now to write and create music openly and my god is it beautiful, sad of course but beautiful.
I go home for a week tomorrow, after completely hating that idea i now realise that going home will be good for me. I've spent the day cleaning, packing and catching up on work and will be going to see friends later this evening. It's been nice to be alone today.

AND AT ONCE I KNEW I WAS NOT MAGNIFICENT

This was supposed to be a picture of Sarah's "saggy" knees but it didn't work out. 

For everyone who knows me, will know that there really hasn't been many boys in my life and i've learnt to be completely and utterly fine with that. However, as of since a week ago...things on that front have changed dramatically and because it is so out of character it's actually pretty amusing and i find myself just smiling and laughing at the whole situation. It was one of my closest friends birthday here last weekend so she had a load of people round her flat, there was this guy i knew "friend of a friend" so i said hello and we started talking and was nice until all my friends decided to tell him about my drunken incident and then he was teasing me about it. Later on in the night we were at a club and well one thing led to another (as the story goes) and since then we've met up twice and plan to meet again this week. Things have happened so damn fast and i feel like i should know by now whether i like him but if someone where to ask me i wouldn't have a definite answer. Oh and he happens to be really good friends with the guy my closest friend is with. 

Yesterday evening my friends made me roast dinner (again people cooking for me woo) and we debated whether late night movies really just mean late night movies or are they code for something else ha. We confused ourselves so much, by 2am we thought it was probably too late for "late night movies" and decided to go to sleep.

After one week i have learnt, boys are confusing and girls really do think way to much.

SPANISH SAHARA

So much is changing in my life right now and i'm not really sure how to process it. It's strange when you finally get the chance to be someone who you'd wanted to be for such a long time but not actually knowing how to be that person. It's not that it doesn't feel right, more than it is new and that's what's scary i guess, the unknown we come to find in beginnings because that is when this is i think, a new beginning.

CASE OF YOU

These were taken from a very beautiful day. I met up with my homegirls, we made christmas dinner and played a load of games, the food was yummy.

I had a good Monday yesterday, 2 hour lecture on sexual motivations... was urm a little graphic ha. After uni, i went grocery shopping with some really cool people, they never fail to make me laugh, even if the topic of interest is on something as morbid as suicide. Sarah and her boyfriend bought a tone of food and decided to cook me dinner so i spent the evening with them, we headed to the bar which was night, finally got to eat my onion rings! I don't know whether people think i don't eat or something but i got another offer for my friend to make me dinner one evening this week ha, less washing up for me! This week has started off good. I'm feeling so damn happy at the moment.

I just made the most yummiest tomato spaghetti with salad!

Razzle Red

Finally got round to developing my pictures from London, i remember walking around these populated streets late at night with my best friend, such a simple thing but oh so thrilling. This trip was the best way to end 2011 and seriously got me thinking about 2012. Mel made me realise how happy i am with my life and who i am, i think my idea of being real (in who you are and what you believe in) is the secret ingredient to enjoying life to the fullest, all the little things make you as happy as the big things.

My first week back at university started off relatively slow, but i think that was just because i was getting used to it all again. Thursday was such a lovely day at uni, a group of us spent a few hours in the SU sand then later at night we went to the pub quiz. On Friday we went to the pub again, free food, and it was actually rather yummy. On Saturday, Sarah and I had lunch in revolutions and did a little shopping when we were supposed to be doing work, eventually we did get round to that. It was my friends birthday so we went out into town and i had an amazing night, glad to be reunited with all my university friends again.

Question: If you don't know whether you like someone or not, instantly mean you don't really like them? Friends or more than friends, i honestly don't know.

Blueberry

I'm so happy to be back here at univeristy, it felt like such a relief coming back to my room and it's been lovely to see all my friends again! I spent all of sunday unpacking and catching up with friends while monday i got back to my usual routine. Today i  managed to get done all i planned for, so far so good but it has been rather long so i'm ending my night with blueberrys and tea because they are YUMMMMMMMY. I can't wait for this weekend! Hopefully, i'll be developing 2-3 rolls of film at someone point this week also.

Hope ya'll are having a lovely 2012.

WE MIGHT FEEL UNSOUND

Making blueberry pancakes whilst listening to James Blake is the only real way to start a day right. YUMMY IN MY TUMMY. It's true what Josh said, the simplest things in life are really what make me happiest and i'm learning to understand that is a good thing, i'm an enthusiastic person and i have to accept that. I go back to university this weekend and although i've had such a lovely Christmas home, i cannot wait to be back and see everyone. I really didn't think that just after one term of getting to know people, a separation of 4 weeks would make me miss them all as much as i did.. I'm so excited go back! I've just been catching up on lectures and things this last week, whilst practising yoga, using the last of my film and trying to finish crime and punishment. It has been actually a nice week.

Oh and films to watch (if you haven't already) are Beginners, Dead Poets Society and The Tree of Life, they all changed my mood instantly. The first two inspired me and the last one is hauntingly beautiful, it'll make you think and confuse the hell out of you but it is incredible so watch it!

I best get back to my psychology degree now...

"You do what you love, and fuck the rest"- Little Miss Sunshine

THE STRANGERS

Today i spent getting my assessment done and although i've finished my first draft, i'm not happy with it just yet and will continue to work on it in a few days, it's worth a big percentage so i need to make sure it is really good. However, i woke up majorly late today and spent a lot of my day procastinating again. I'm hoping yoga will teach me self discipline, i get so easily distracted and want to spend my time more efficiently rather then wasting it. The rest of my night consisting of an acedemic plan, i now know what all my future assessments are and when they need to be done, so i'm feeling more confident and organised. Now i just have to file all my past notes and everything will be sorted, almost. Night, i must wake up early tomorrow! x

IT'S REAL

It's difficult to see what is real from false, sometimes we can become so blind that we end up living a life of false constructions. I've always had this obsession with seeing, really seeing what's there and what's the truth. I hate falseness, living in a house full of it can be the most suffocating thing in the world. I want things to be different, to be real and i want that now, i've always been impatient.