BETTER RUN BETTER RUN

I don't really have any sense of time or day now. I had to ask my friend about 5 times within the same hour what time we were meeting, getting forgetful too but i love summer and the freedom it gives. It's the time of year when we all can be lazy and not feel guilty about it. Currently still in my pj's and all i have done is eat a muffin, drank tea, watched the film named "never let me go" and making a new bracelets out of threads. I was actually shocked at how much the film made my heart ache. I know it isn't real but i don't necessarily think that's the point. It reminded me about the equality of humans and what everything else deserves but sometimes never receives. I don't like to think about it too deeply but there is such a variety of living things. Humans are the same by evolution but different by DNA and the environment. I hate how unfair life can be to people who don't deserve it. I hate how people say everything happens for a reason and think that justifies everything. I'm a mixed mess right now. I feel so much sometimes and it can be so overwhelming. I don't even know how to deal with it. Should i try to make sense of these thoughts that no one else ever brings up or just ignore them? Sometimes i confuse my self so much with what is right and wrong, sane and insane, truth and false- i end up right at the start with the same confusion as i entered with.